Namaste... Please Vote

Fall Was Here

This is what the yoga instructor said at the end of class the other day, right after we had all declared "Ohhhhmmmmmm" together and bowed with our hands over our hearts.  She is from somewhere else - she has an accent that I can't place on my own, I'd have to ask her.  I'd guess somewhere in Europe - maybe Germany?  Or Eastern Europe?  I believe she used to be a ballerina, which is why she's such a great yoga instructor.  I hadn't been to a yoga class since January, and knew the last one of the 5-pack I bought was about to expire, so I stretched for the first time in awhile (and am still sore).  I try to catch her classes because they're usually slightly challenging, but not too much.  Everyone smiled and laughed to themselves as she hesitantly added the part about voting at the tail-end of her namaste.

In the book I'm reading, Songs Without Words by Ann Packer, one of the characters actually mentions that "Namaste" means "my soul acknowledges your soul."  This seems to apply to voting, particularly nowadays when so much rage is being stirred up towards immigrants.  I opened up the news again, to read about the president's plans to send thousands of troops to our border and stop immigrants from coming into this country.  I don't watch him very often, but in the clips I've heard or seen, he always makes sure to mention that these people are "animals" or "not the nicest people" or something of that sort - drug dealers, criminals, etc.

So this is where my maternity leave money is going - to support thousands of troops to stop weaponless, desperate people who seem to have no other choice than walk hundreds of miles away from their conflict?

What always floors me, is that our president is married to an immigrant.

Awhile ago, I listened to a RadioLab trilogy series about the US border.  One of my takeaways from it was that no matter what gets put on the border, people will find a way to get here.  If there's a bigger wall, then they will take boats.  And what about airports?  My question is - why do people want to come here anymore?  If I knew that my children could be taken from me at the border of Canada, and that some troops were waiting for me, I would steer clear.  But maybe things are just that bad where these people are coming from - they must be.

I'm not sure that Americans can connect with the feeling of having to physically leave their home - to wake up one morning and start walking.  I can't imagine what that must be like.  Over here, they talk about Cascadia - when the earthquake scheduled to sever San Francisco causes all the volcanos connected with it to explode and tsunamis to take out Seattle and the Oregon Coast.  I wonder if that would be the time, that people would just start walking to escape the danger that is coming.  Terrifying, right?

But my bigger question is, why are we de-humanizing immigrants?  If America really wants to crack down on drugs, have police raid the private schools, wall street, and fraternities.  If the government wants some of their money back - stop corporations from finding loopholes to not pay thousands, probably millions, of tax dollars.  Maybe hold the people on wall street who sunk our economy accountable.  Why do we not think to "go after" the wealthy?  That is where the real money is, the expensive drugs, and the people who support the drug industry - why are we picking on the people who can't even afford a car or plane ticket to get their family to safety?

The de-humanization is the scariest part.  We see things like genocide in Rwanda and think, how can that happen?  When I was there, I heard about how neighbors were physically killing their neighbors.  The radio station called a certain tribe "cockroaches" and would just say it over and over again on the airwaves.  We think, how can a country get to that point?  My grandfather always said the Germans were smart people.  But isn't that the rhetoric that we're hearing now?  Immigrants constantly de-humanized by our commander in chief and millions of tax dollars put towards stopping their "invasion"?  He's already called them animals - why not get more specific and say cockroaches?

Anyway, I personally love people from other countries - they're in my family and they are my family.  They're my Mom, my friends, and some of the coolest, smartest, and best people I know.  President Trump likes them so much that he married one.

My soul acknowledges your soul.  Namaste.

(Please Vote)

Can't Believe These Leaves Are Already Gone

Thoughts on Things

Three Fingered Jack Burn Area

I've gone through phases where I've read the news and tried to keep up with things.  In college, I had a professor who encouraged us to read at least 15 minutes a day - maybe with our breakfast or something.  I had BBC News as my home page during college, which later changed to NPR - once I discovered NPR.  Over the past couple years, I've pretty much lived under a rock as much as I can and stayed away from the news for a variety of reasons.  Every time I do seem to open it up, there seems to be a piece of our country that is falling apart, again.

Yesterday, I discovered that the Perkins Loans - which helped low-income kids go to college - was not renewed in 2017.  It was blocked by the Senate at the time.  As someone who could only go to undergraduate and graduate school because of student loans, decisions like that break my heart.  I am waiting for the day when my Income-Based Repayment Plan, which will allow my loans to be forgiven after 10 years of service to a government organization, non-profit, etc. - will be overturned.  I've heard that I am grandfathered in - but again, my heart breaks for future generations of smart kids who will struggle even more to find their way.

Today, I decided to look at the news.  First article that popped up - potentially changing the law so that people born in this country from parents who are not citizens would not automatically become citizens.  I have to admit, I have also always felt this was a strange way to become a citizen.  I've had friends who lived in this country their whole life legally and after college had to return to their home country due to not actually having been born here.  I've likewise met people with foreign accents who have never lived in America, but are citizens because they happened to be born here while their parents were working here.  The pathways to citizenship are a bit strange in America - birth, marriage... what else?

Anyway, what's more disturbing, is that President Trump thinks he can overturn this law with an executive order.  I'm not sure if he can or not, but this is what I find scary nowadays - the idea that a president has this much power, and a president that I personally wouldn't even trust with my lunch money.

And why are we focused on this, right now?

My brother lives in Montreal, Canada. In Canada, a parent can take leave before and after their child is born and receive 80% of their paycheck the first year.  The second year, the parent can receive 60% of their pay.  Childcare is free and the childcare is good.  My brother's children will be able to go to college for free or an affordable price.  They will never worry about basic healthcare coverage.  People in Montreal don't move to neighborhoods because "the schools are good" - because all the public schools are good.  The same amount of taxes get pulled out of his paycheck as mine - high 20s/30%.  My family's property taxes are more in rural New Jersey than they are for my brother, who lives in the Montreal metro area.  Sales tax is higher - but hey, when you're strapped for childcare in this country, who's buying things anyway?

These things, that my brother will not have to worry about - are conversations that I have all the time with my friends.  Conversations surrounding how our kids will go to college, how we will live on one income or afford childcare, what to do about health insurance when a job is lost, how college debt is holding us back from buying houses, how to even save money, etc. etc.  My friend worked practically until her due date, yet my sister-in-law will be able to start taking maternity leave months before the child is born.  Here a woman will use all of her vacation and sick time to have maybe 6 weeks off approved, returning to work - after having a baby - with none of it left.  That's probably best-case scenario.

How do we even do it in this country??

I am also continually amazed by how so many Americans continue to work so hard, living on low wages and believing that if they continue to work hard, things will be better.  I am the same.  It's all we can do - find more work, work longer hours, think of new business ventures - try and make it work.  I found this story a perfect portrayal of the America that I know - the ones who still believe that if you're not making it, it's on you - and that the ones who've made it worked hard to get there.  The ones who are loyal and continue to have good faith in those they believe in.

95% of the people who I have seen "make it" have had help, or there was something that they didn't have to worry about - their parents gave them their first car, grandparents paid for college, parents helped them get their first home, money was left to them by their grandparents, etc.  There is often one HUGE thing that they didn't have to worry about.  Most of us middle class kids have safety nets too - parents who jump in when times are tough, not to mention the ones who just use their parents' credit card until they're 30.  But even then, this help is not sustainable for a lot of us who wonder - or know - that we will never be able to do the same for our kids.

These are just the common things I see, the experiences that I have.  This doesn't include the countless Americans whose lives are shatter due to a cancer diagnosis, getting caught up needlessly in the criminal justice system, a job termination due to someone not liking them that affects their ability to get employed or receive unemployment, a business that suddenly takes a dive, or mental health or substance use issues that strap a family for years.

But the America I know, will keep blaming themselves.  They must not be trying hard enough, working hard enough, praying hard enough, or something.  America, you deserve so much more than this.  We are one of the wealthiest nations in the world - where the heck is it going?

This is just my own personal reflection.  Again, you may have noticed, I didn't even know NPR existed until college.  I grew up in a small, rural, white town, full of beautiful scenery and church-going people - where democrats were a rare breed and might be elitist or defensive.  I grew up with people who depend on each other when times are tough - meals from friends, money from the offering plate, free labor from a neighbor, friends taking care of the kids and picking them up from school.  These are the people who see the world through a framework of work ethic, reputation, and morals - not systems, privilege, or race.  I think it's vital, for the health of our country, that these two worlds somehow merge - as they have for me, at least - because I know that we are all after the same thing.

I'm not some whiney liberal complaining about the world burning, an educated academic sitting in my ivory tower, an environmentalist hippy crunchin' around in the forest, an aloof traveler spouting the best ways to live, an idealist floating above the reality of life and work, or a naive white girl trapped in some bubble.  Or maybe I am all of those things and more.  Who knows.

But what I do know, is that I'm an American.  I love my country and I am working pretty hard to make it out there - whatever "making it" means.  For me, it would be to not have children while still having housemates.  Let's realize this dream!

Thanks for reading and thinking with me.

The Future