Friday, February 28, 2014

To Be


"All teachers must face the fact that they are potential points of reference.  The greatest challenge a teacher has is to accept is the courage to be; if we are, we make mistakes; we say too much where we should have said nothing; we do not speak where a word might have made all the difference.  If we are, we will make terrible errors.  But we still have the courage to struggle on, trusting our own points of reference to show us the way."

"I have more hope that someone who has shouted, 'Stop the world, I want to get off!' can get back on and enjoy the ride than someone who wants more cushions."

Madeleine L'Engle Circle of Quiet

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Mysterium and Meaning-Makers

A few summers ago, my roommate Nikki and I decided that all of the world was a mystery.  Already unconsciously aware of this fact, we brought forth this mantra to frame each and every experience we encountered.  We would add it to the end of statements, such as, "Nikki, the newspaper came today... what a mystery!!  How did it even arrive here?  Who brought it and what is he trying to tell us??!"  One morning we decided to leave him (or her!) a muffin with a note, but I don't think that they took it; THE MYSTERY CONTINUED....

The funny thing is though, sticking this lens on the front of everyday experience, like a newborn encountering the world for the first time, truly enhanced it for me; it not only made us laugh, but reminded us to wonder... about everything!  The world was made new; we were reminded of the magic of it.  We created the space to ask questions that may not have answers and delight in the unknown rather than fear it.

I've been wondering about the connection of meaning making and adventure therapy, after reading an article that claimed that adventure therapy gets at the spiritual aspect of ourselves.  Willie Unsoeld, a famous adventurer who was trying to figure out the components of Outward Bound, talks about the "cosmic perspective" his essay entitled Spiritual Values in Wilderness and the numinous:

He [Rudolph Otto, author of "The Idea of the Holy"] coined a new word - the idea of the "numinous".  It's a dimension of human experience.  The numinous dimension of reality consists of mysterium, tremendum, et fascinosan.  Mysterium is the sense of mystery.  There has never been a sacred anything that lacked mystery.  The mysteriousness of it is the sense of something more, of a hiddenness beyond which you can't go... When you step into the wilderness, and here is where I make the transition, there is a mystery in nature which I thin is one of its great attractions for us.  There's a hiddennes of organic growth, of how a seed decides to be an oak tree.  No matter how much reference we have to the genetic coding of RNA, DNA, somehow it doesn't  come out totally explained. 

Not only does nature embody mysterium, but each of us is made from it.  Though we can learn about our own biology, isn't it baffling how everything works and how the outside world can be so influential to our inner selves?  Even more, when chaotic mysterium suddenly comes a little closer to ourselves, we may want meaning from these experiences and help our spirits to cope with chaos by dwelling within the comforts of music, the arts, personal connection or even endorphins of physical activity.  These delights create energy in us; we become delighted in their hidden sparks of the numinous.  In Circle of Quiet, Madeleine L'Engle writes about her response to chaos:

After a day in the emergency room of a city hospital, a day in which I was surrounded by accidents, dying children, irritable patients, many of whom spoke no English and could not follow directions, incredible patience on the part of the understaffed doctors and nurses, I felt somewhat the same sense of irrationality in the world around me (all these people were there by accident) as did the man who was almost killed by the falling beam.  Whenever this occurs I turn to the piano, to my typewriter, to a book.  We turn to stories and pictures and music because they show us who and what and why we are, and what our relationship is to life and death, what is essential, and what, despite the arbitrariness of falling beams, will not burn.  - Madeleine L'Engle, Circle of Quiet

In this way, our tiny bodies and spirits exist within and beyond this expansive wilderness that extends way way out there.  Yet, if we keep our heads connected to our bodies and keeping breathing into our spirits to explore and connect with the tremendum (raw power) of the environment and connections that surrounds us, we can engage with the mysterium (awe-some-ness).  We can feel loved, inspired, delighted and even excited or simply at peace.  Adventure experiences can set the stage for meaning making:  space is created for thinking, connecting, and exploring.  In the article Adventure Therapy in Occupational Therapy: Can We Call it Spiritual Occupation? the author connects humans with meaning:

Human beings are meaning makers, in that they make and express meaning through their performance as well as through their cognitive activities.  Moreover, making meaning through performance is constitutive of who we are.  As human beings we attribute meaning to our own and others activities, and it is through our actions that we express what we mean and who we are.  Making meaning in everyday activities is considered the essence of spirituality. 

The world is so mysterious, in great and terrible ways.  We can make it meaningful of meaningless in any way that we'd like to and in this way, help our spirits grow or allow them to become disabled.  May we meet the numinous and walk amongst its mysterium, tremendum, et fascinosan.... you know what I mean?

There are so many mysteries yet to be solved!!!